As I’m getting older i’m going through stuff and having exciting things happen to me and it sucks that i can’t express any joy to my mom or that she doesn’t even get to see me grow up. She doesn’t see me go off to prom. She doesn’t get to see me graduate or see me get married or to see my kids. Usually growing up is exciting but that will always be in the back of my head and it’s not fair. She got to see all my siblings grow up and then she left me alone on this earth not knowing anything. I don’t understand.